Monday, October 16, 2006

Time Trouble

All my life I have battled against time. Nothing helps. I've read the books. I've been on time management courses and still I feel as though everyday I step onto a roller coaster. I rush around trying to fit in everything getting more and more anxious. If I do all the things I THINK I want to do I end up exhausted and end up unable to do the things that I REALLY want to do.
The things I really want to do are painting and writing which are solo activities and the other things I'm afraid of missing out on social activities.
I even had a quote from Dorothy Rowe (my guru) on the wall which says 'Every one has to decide whether to spend time alone and be oneself or to spend time in the company of others------' I can't remember the exact quote but it is so true. The problems for me are a) I have no self discipline and b) I am so indisicive
Forget new years resolutions. I make resolutions daily, nay hourly. See what I mean?

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

internet

It's almost as frustrating using internet cafés as it is having trouble at home with my lap top. Yesterday Orange would not open up my messagerie and today the café is about to close because being France and it's 12 noon it's time for Lunch.